Hello, Embracing my submission is still complicated to this day. Even though I h

Hello, Embracing my submission is still complicated to this day. Even though I have made progress. But I feel that every time I move forward, a practice, an idea, a fantasy, a desire take shape. But as soon as it comes close to happening or happens, embracing it is complicated for me. And yet, some practices that have now become almost rituals were at the beginning, and are no longer so. I would so much like to fully embrace my status, to be proud of it... I received some advice on this recently. Now I just need to apply it and watch for any change.