Little confessions during my vacation Besides a little more money (which should

Little confessions during my vacation Besides a little more money (which should sort itself out), I have everything I wanted: - friends - boyfriends - health - work - a Master - a man I'm seeing who loves being the first to hear what I did with Master. And yet, I find myself alone in my bed, thinking about my Paris life. I'd like to be somewhere else to live out some of the desires that cross my mind. Before, I loved the campground pool. Today, I find them noisy, with children and even some parents showing no respect. During the day, there isn't much going on and it doesn't inspire me much. So I alternate between crossword puzzles, reading, the pool, board games, and naps. In the evening, I've met people and I'm having fun. At least in the moment. Because during the day or at night, I'm bored. I long for Master or for this man I'm seeing. And I almost wonder whether going on vacation, even if it lets me rest, was such a great idea. Besides, the heat is so unbearable that I wouldn't mind taking off the fabric that makes up my swimsuit. In short, I rest without being able to satisfy my desires. I have fun but I'm bored because I miss men in my life. With nothing for my brain to think about, my imagination is left to take over. I read, but I wasn't expecting to get turned on or even get drawn into the book when a hot scene between an elf and a human was described. Yet the book is about adventures, without suggesting that the sexual side could be part of it. In short, full of contradictions, getting what she wants but not being satisfied with it. Because it wasn't really what she wanted. Think what you want, but these are the thoughts in this bungalow, the heat suffocating me, keeping me from sleeping but inviting me to let my thoughts out.